“Fallen human beings try to refashion reality”. (Magnificat, Jan. 14, 2022) In other words, “I’ll follow God on “my terms; let me call the shots and I’ll go along.” There are probably many causes of this attitude…. maybe a combination of pride and arrogance, perhaps fear, but I think it’s fundamentally a lack of trust. I don’t trust you enough to allow you to take charge…. you are not trustworthy. “Well, sure I trust you for some areas where I have some insurance…… hey if it fails, I’ll still be okay.
“Man, tempted by the devil, let his trust in his Creator die in his heart and, abusing his freedom, disobeyed God’s command. This is what man’s first sin consisted of.278 All subsequent sin would be disobedience toward God and lack of trust in his goodness.” (Catechism of the Catholic Church, par. 397)
I can find this “lack of trust in God’s goodness’ still plaguing me after all these years. It seems that situations occur on a regular basis where I’m being called to trust God more fully…. and I can tend to resist, to procrastinate, to find reasons to “kick the can down the road”. If I really follow God’s direction here, it’s going to cost me and I’m not sure I’m ready to pay that cost. Hmmmmmmm, what am I waiting for?
So, what are we to do? It’s certainly a good thing to realize we need to grow in trust, but what are we to do? Well, I think it’s important to first confess again our trust in the Lord, to reaffirm our love for him, that he is my Lord … the King… He is God and I am not. And then let’s start anew. If we experience God’s call in a clear way, let’s do it…. let’s just say yes. If it’s a major issue, certainly ask for help in discerning if it’s God speaking. However, let’s come to a decision one way or the other. Peace should accompany this decision. God really loves us…we can trust him.
While easier said than done, let’s give it a try and trust the Lord. Let’s trust in his goodness, and “all will be well with our souls”.