“Even The Saints Fail”

Over the years I have enjoyed reading about the saints. Their stories inspired me to want to love and serve the Lord. Yet to be honest many of the portrayals of these “Hall of Famers” described them as sinless, having never made any mistake, at least no serious mistakes. While one part of me is happy to consider them as “perfect”, the other part of me feels like I could never be a saint because I’m not perfect, and certainly not sinless. I used to picture meeting St. Paul or Padre Pio and they would drop kicki me out of their small group in heaven….”get the bum out of here”. Okay that may be a bit exaggerated, but I think you get my drift.

Well, I think I’ve come to a more balanced view of the saints over the years as I’ve read more about them and lived a bit longer. In some cases I feel we may be closer to them than we think. Hey, I’m not ready for any canonization, but I feel even the saints had their tough moments and they didn’t always measure up…. I can certainly relate to that. I recently read an article by , Archbishop Luis Martínez († 1956) a spiritual author and the first official Primate of Mexico from his book “Understanding the Hardships of the Journey”.(ref. Magnificat, 2-1-24). The article gives me some further hope in my journey. It’s a bit long, but listen up:

•  “Every time we suffer a calamity in our spiritual life, we grow alarmed and think we have lost our way. For we have fancied an even road for ourselves, a footpath, a way strewn with flowers. Hence, upon finding ourselves in a rough way, one filled with thorns, one lacking all attraction, we think we have lost the road, whereas it is only that the ways of God are very different from our ways. 
• Sometimes the biographies of the saints tend to foster this illusion, when they do not fully reveal the profound story of those souls or when they disclose it only in a fragmentary manner, selecting solely the attractive and pleasing features. They call our attention to the hours that the saints spent in prayer, to the generosity with which they practiced virtue, to the consolations they received from God. We see only what is shining and beautiful, and we lose sight of the struggles, darkness, temptations, and falls through which they passed. 
• And we think like this: Oh if I could live as those souls! What peace, what light, what love was theirs! Yes, that is what we see; but if we would look deeply into the hearts of the saints, we would understand that the ways of God are not our ways. The ways of God for attaining perfection are ways of struggle, of dryness, of humiliations, and even of falls. To be sure, there is light and peace and sweetness in the spiritual life: and indeed a splendid light [and] a peace above anything that could be desired, and a sweetness that surpasses all the consolations of earth. There is all this, but all in its proper time; and in each instance it is something transient. 
• What is usual and most common in the spiritual life are those periods in which we are compelled to suffer, and which disconcert us because we were expecting something different. 
• Most souls that live in the midst of temptations think they are doing poorly; those that have the misfortune to fall believe all is lost; those that live in desolations fancy it is their fault that God has forsaken them. Therefore it is most important in the spiritual life to realize that we are not lost when we travel those strange roads. We need only realize that they are God’s ways, that it will cost us much effort to walk them, and that we shall need much abnegation to travel them. Yet they are the true ways to attain perfection.”

So even the saints struggled and had their moments; truly, “all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” (Rom. 3:23) So when we fail, let’s “just keep going …..let’s not quit.” Let’s rely on the goodness of God and his mercy. If we don’t quit, we will make it. I sometimes imagine the saints in heaven cheering us on as we struggle and perhaps fall, but then climb back up and continue on. I believe that the Lord is very pleased with us when we get up after being knocked down. So let’s keep going. And all will be well with our soul…which is very good news.